ARMELIA

2009-10-19T08:15:00.000-07:00

moved to http://bittersweet-whatnots.blogspot.com

relink huns.

2009-10-13T19:35:00.000-07:00

changing blog soon ppl! still gonna stick to blogger!
love y'all!

HAPPYYYY

2009-09-24T21:50:00.000-07:00

25/09

HAPPY 6 MONTHSARY TO MY BELOVED RIDHWAN!
THANK YOU FOR YESTERDAYYYY!
LOVE U SO MUCH BABY!
:D:D:D

2009-09-23T00:00:00.000-07:00

24/09

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI TO ALL MY FRIENDS OUT THERE!
INGIN SAYA MENYUSUN SEPULUH JARI UNTUK MEMOHON AMPUN DAN MAAF SEKIRANYA SAYA ADA LUKAKAN HATI, TERKASAR BAHASA,MEMPERLAKUKAN YG TAK BAIK PADA KALIAN SEMUA.
LOVE U PPLE! :)

so first day of raya, the usual.
my grandpa's plc and my pak long's plc.
did the routine. seeking forgiveness, eat!
snap here snap there, pics next time okay (:
then off to my granduncle's plc.
then mum's sibs, grandfather and step grandma came over our plc.
thats the end of first day! (:

second day, dad's side came over.
so the kecoh. haha.
with the twins first raya. so adorableeee!

yup, basically thats the raya part.
more to come.
cant wait for raya with my sec sch gals.

today being the 24th, im going out with Wan! (:
tomorrow is our 6 mthsary!
half a year, wow thats fast.
happy advance 6 mths babyboy.
i love u many2!
cant wait to meet u later. *winks

2009-09-10T01:30:00.000-07:00

its the fasting mth and boyyy time flies fast.
we Muslims are left with errr 10 more days?

for all you readers out there who read my previous posts,
just fyi, im okay with Ridhwan now. since like err a wk ago. haha.
we're going onto our half a yr soon.
and im looking forward for more months together.
and hopefully years.
i love u baby. (:

after over half of fasting month, i finally set my legs at Geylang yest.
with family love.
reached there around 5pm i think.
walked around and reserved our table for break fast at this restaurant.
bought lotsa stuffs for Raya.
we only headed home about close to midnight.
its been a long time since us full strength went out for quality time together.
as for today, breaking fast at my grandfather's plc. :)
and i overheard the menu mum planned with my aunties.
yummy. gonna have a feast again today!
:DDDDD

anw, Rendy is at tekong now serving NS.
i really hope he's fine.
Maz is gonna join him tomorrow.
i really hope these two guys pull through and be better men.
i can't imagine bf's turn. :(
well, looking forward to see them both when they book out after confinement.

anw, impy, got yr offline msg. yup checked it out already.
he's stupid if he were to go back to that gal.
since u say hes trying to change, i hope he wont go back.
if he does, there goes his chance of turning over a new leaf.
haiz.

i need my dose of bf's love. hehe.

2009-08-31T01:31:00.000-07:00

two days of baybeats was awesome.
awesome bands, environment and ppl i went with!
two thumbs up!
amberlin rocks!

thanks to my great company and ppl i saw there.
hilda, rendy, mimi, mahathir, jaci, nigel, syahidah,paula, yestmint,duffy, etc.
and my cousin, shaqeilla!

cant wait for next yr's baybeats!

thank you my lovely friends! (:

depressed

2009-08-29T06:40:00.000-07:00

i still do love him :(

im just so confused. as much as i thought i was right, it will always end up being my fault. i totally suck in relationships. and as much as i agreed to go away, i will always wind up around u, having u in my thoughts, my dreams and in my mind every second. and i love u so much my heart aches, especially when all this is happening. i love u ridhwan.

status: its complicated/single. :(

ppl pray for me and him okay.
love u guys.

27th la muthafucking blogger

2009-08-26T23:20:00.000-07:00

CAN SOMEONE SLAP ME?
I FEEL SO STUPID. LOSER. REJECTED.
ARGHHHHHHHHHH.
WHAT I DO WILL ALWAYS BE WRONG TO U.
WILL ALWAYS APPEAR CLINGY AND DESPERATE.

this yr's puase and raya is gonna be the worst.

god pls show me my way thru all this.

i need ur guidance.

pls show me whats right.

AMIN.

in love

2009-08-25T06:00:00.000-07:00

spent my day today with impian. (:
settled bike stuffs at kranji and we went causeway point to walk around.
and metro seems the same. i miss the place. the environment and pple.
and we went cotton on.
impy bought a top and she dropped so many shirts. hahahahaha.
then hung out at my void deck and talked till my brother came back.
:DDDDD

had fun with u gal. (:

baby,

this day 5 mths back 0545hrs, im the luckiest gal alive cause i became yours.

and your presence complete me, complete my life.

before i close my eyes to sleep, when i wake up from my sleep, u are the first person i think about and i thank God for bringing us together.

u're the perfect lullaby, u're my sweet dreams.

u held my hands and guide me thru life so i wont get lost.

and i promise u that im gonna be there for u.

im gonna be with u thru it all. thru thick and thin.

im gonna be the one u laugh with, cry with and the shoulders u lie on when u're fatigue or down.

im gonna be yr everything.

yr touch never fail to electrify me, when u wrap yr hands around me, i feel so secured, safe, warm and comfortable. and when u press yr lips against mine, i feel high floating on air.

i need u in my life, need u by my side.

yr name is tattooed in my heart.

i love u so much sweetheart. my guardian angel.

happy five monthsary babyboy.

xoxo

with love, Lia.

today is the 24th laaaaaa

2009-08-23T20:40:00.000-07:00

after what it seems like years, i finally get to meet bf. (: (:
yesterday after buka, we went to Hilda's place to watch dvd.
we watched ghost rider and grease. hahaha.
we talked about her house preparations, the curtains and paints and all.
and her dad is funny la. haha.
talked to me as though im his friend.
then me, hilda and mimi had a serious talk about some clubbing bitches who are effing bitchy and heartless, call yourself NUS student, F* off.
i swear if i ever club and i saw those morons there, i will shuff their mouths with penis of any sick guys, oh no, for what, they'll love it. hmm i'll throw acid onto their self-proclaimed pretty faces.
they are not my enemies or what, but since day 1 i loathe them and their high maintenance behaviours. so what if u got dough but when u give her, u boasted about giving her money always. she dont need yr stash okay. you got all from yr parents. its not even yr hard earnings.
luckily mimi realised that already. we love aight babe. me hilda and zim. :DDD

woah. fasting mth. hahaha. so much angst.
i dont usually have enemies.
the last one also we've cleared things off at town.
and we did have some good memories during soccer last time.
so its worth mending the friendship.
during sec sch, well those typical minahs.
we fought in toilets, in the middle of the canteen.
they're nobodies. i dont even regard them as enemies.
well enough of this.

on a lighter note, im so happy i finally get to see bf.
and i know now hes contemplating to let me buy a bike of my own again.
babyyyyyyyyyyyyy, dont change yr mind okay.
i love u very the much.
just imagine this, we ride side by side. cool kan?
hehe.
i know u must be smirking when u read this. :(
it takes time.
im gonna be the safest rider ever. pinky swear. (:

love u sayang.

(:

2009-08-20T21:04:00.000-07:00

LOVE YOU BABY!

MAKE SURE U PUASE FULL K?

TODAY IS THE 21ST AUG.

(:

2009-08-20T05:20:00.000-07:00

was supposed to meet Zim and Hilda at Zim's crib.
but i fell asleep in the afternoon.
so understand understood la. hahahaha.

tomorrow is the eve of fasting month.
time pass fast or what.
so this year's fasting mth and hari raya is gonna be the first one with baby.
im excited. super excited.
and im sure baby is excited too.
i bet there are gonna be lotsa challenges.
no k-i-s-s-i-n-g! LOL.
as for raya, we wanna buy a couple set together (:
or atleast buy the same colour.
k i should stop or i'll go on forever about raya preparations.
hahaha. and its not even puase yet.

and i wanna meet baby tmr before we start fasting!
(: (: (:

HAPPY FASTING TO ALL THE MUSLIMS OUT THERE!
THOSE WHO NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT, HERES YR TIME.
THOSE WHO NEED TO GAIN WEIGHT, EAT A COW WHEN BUKA-ING.
HAHAHAHAHA.

2009-08-16T06:53:00.000-07:00

was supposed to update blog days ago.
told impy i would do so.
but yea, as y'all know me.
just the thought of typing 'www.blogger.com', ugh.
i guess today is an exception.
cause i stayed home so i thought why not right?
(:

the other day accompanied impy to settle her bike instalments.
then hung out with her.
her ride was awesome (:
i might be getting that yummy spark myself.
maybe with FBE plate, cool.
gonna talk to Wan into this.
this whole 'u sub motor i, i sub motor u' talk.
sub as in 2nd rider's name for that bike (:
i have impy's bike photos but ya, i couldnt find my usb cable.
some other time then.

so today aug the 16th, i stayed home.
cause im down with flu, blocked nose.
i mean so far im still at home la.
hahaha.
(:

ridhwan,
i wanna thank you for everything.
cause im lost, in a dark tunnel.
and u're definitely light that shine in it.
and i need to be around you all the time.
cause u're like the air that i breathe in.
without u around, i feel so suffocated.
i love u with all my heart.
u are one angel in my life.
*hugs and kisses

2009-08-10T22:49:00.000-07:00

HANGOVER!
hehe.
this is one of the scene photos post bachelor night.
damn hilarious bunch of doofuses. esp Alan, the one carrying a baby.

caught this with bf. (:
late night show eve of national day.

im being random here. LOL.

waiting for impy to get ready.
gonna settle some bike stuffs.
and she has alot to tell me.
so i cant wait.
(:

so meanwhile, i thought it will be great to post a short entry.
have a fun week pple!

for the muslim, enjoy eating lunch while it last.
cause FASTING MONTH IS AROUND THE CORNER BAYBEH!

cheers. hehe!

today is the 11th. ughhhhhhhhhhh.

2009-08-09T00:20:00.000-07:00

i had the best time of my life yesterday.

had a date with Ridhwan Ramlan.

-chilled at ct hall.

-dinner at bugis

-back to esplanade

-late night movie, 'hangover'

-camwhored all the way

-fun fun and more fun

thank you so much syg.

HAPPY 44TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! (:

2009-08-05T00:10:00.000-07:00

hey pple, i wanna change back my url to babyridewithme.blogspot.com but not now, still under construction by yours truly, hopefully without my sister's help. will keep u guys udpated! (if theres any soul reading my blog, sheesh, loser sei. lol)

i have this interview tmr and i hope i get the job. cause hari raya is coming. but thats not what i think about actually. to be frank, im thinking of 25th sept, 4th oct and nov holiday plans. pls let all go smoothly. (:

i still cant believe that fasting mth is in exactly 2 wks. not that i have to get myself prepared or what la, i really have to start fasting properly, no more skipping or breaking my fast before sunset. and no more answering pple that i have menses, on a daily basis for the month. haha!
and to think that i diligently fasted when i was young. sheesh, what a shame. oh no, i just remembered. i fasted only because my grandfather gave us money. damn. im such a bad muslim.i really have to change la. i dont want it to dread till the time i get married and my child will follow my footsteps. change lia!

speaking of my grandfather, i miss him so much and i hope his diabetes is within control. no more gangrene and amputation pls. my family have had enough trauma after the first amputation. *sobs

before i went to bed yesterday, i kept on thinking about my future. as in how is it gonna be like in two years time, or even next year. will i be happy? will i be stable? how bout education? am i gonna continue my studies? will my relationship be fine? how are my friends coping with their personal lifes? how bout my life? i feel anxious but at the same time im excited with what my future will have in store for me. i can only pray to God everything will turn out the way i want it to be.

bro's sick. i guess his classmate got sick and it spreads around. and my mum got worried sick. she thinks that we calling him ameerul is not that appropriate. so we are gonna start calling him putra, his second name. i donno if i wanna believe in all this or not but i do have family history of this. like my mum's sis, her name is Rohanita, i think they call her Anita, but she fell sick most of the time, so they called her Ayu and surprisingly, her immunity improved. so that name maintains till now. and my dad's bro too. his name is Ghani, but he got unwell so they changed to Wahid. hmm weird huh? but for my bro's case, i guess its nothing. he doesnt fall sick that frequent. it just that when his classmate is down with a flu bug, it tends to spread to the rest.
so i guess we dont have to worry much.
today hes all better. love you ameerul putra!

aight. will update sooooon.
cheerios!

ps: TODAY IS THE 6TH. BLOGGER, YOUUUUUU. UGH.

2009-08-02T02:24:00.000-07:00

reached home around 7 plus in the morning just now.
met Wan yesterday night and he brought his mum's cooking; chicken rice. and his mum even packed for me the soup. so sweet hehe (:
we went hilda's place afterwards to chill with her.
then headed off to meet Wan's friends to celebrate Ridzwan aka Mok's 20th birthday.
we met at clementi around 12 plus midnight.
then rode off to Kent ridge park and chilled. then went riding and off to eat.
and we chilled till about 5 plus.
then Wan sent me home. we sat at Titanic and talked.
its been quite some time since he hang out till morning. hehe.

and i forgot to bring my digi cam. damn it.

2009-07-25T23:21:00.000-07:00

life is all better now. (:
i hope we last.
i love u so much md ridhwan bin ramlan!

HAPPY 4 MONTHSARYYYYYY(:

2009-07-01T04:06:00.000-07:00

things happening at home:-
-dad got himself a cab of his own. no longer a sub hirer. (:
-my brother is suspected to have asthma, awaiting for doctor to diagnose him. :(
-mum bought us mac breakfast :)
-my internet crashes again. :(

thats about it.
hehe.

someone is really getting on my nerves.
ughhhhh.

2009-06-29T23:15:00.000-07:00

im feeling so down.
i have so many things going thru my mind.
i dont know how to put in words.let this be left unsaid.
when i have nothing to do at home, i'll start browsing thru photos and reminisce my past.
so here it goes.
bear with my boring-ness, if not see the top right hand corner, click on that and kindly leave

AND I MISS THESE PPLE! (:

adios

2009-06-27T12:54:00.000-07:00

thanks to Ridhwan, i'm all better now.
he came over and we talked for so long.
and he made me feel a whole lot better. a whole lot.
thanks syg.
and he has tests on Monday and i know he's been studying so hard.
wishing him all the best and i know he can score the papers.
gd luck baby.
i know you will get yr diploma. (:

2009-06-26T03:54:00.000-07:00

have you ever felt that the person closest to you, your loved one doesnt understand you at all?
in fact he/she is always bringing you down, making you feel so useless and demoralised.
well, if u ever feel that way, welcome to my club!
it sucks,totally. and i dont know how else to react when those words were smacked right down to my face. i would rather he/she slap me, it will not hurt as much. damn it.
things are wild now. sometimes i feel like i dont even know myself. when i look at myself in the mirror, i dont even know who the hell is the girl who looks back at me.
any medical officers kind enough to spare a few minutes and diagnose me? hehe.
bipolar, schizo, depression, whatever? haha.
well jokes aside.
the thing i'm trying to convey here is, im currently disappointed with this particular someone.
and i don't know what did i really do to make this someone mad at me.
the thing that i put myself into involves my future and what im planning to do or rather be.
of all people that matters to me, i was expecting, oh actually still am expecting is for that someone to understand and support my decisions cause its best for me.
not adding salt to the wound and bringing down my confidence and self-esteem further.
i failed before, i realised that. you really dont have to bother emphasising it and predicting that failure is gonna hit me again cause trust me, i made this decision without hesitation or reluctance or having to impress anyone or doing it for anyone's sake. its based on what i want.
and i dont fail all the time.
maybe you dont know me that well. but your judgements are way beyond my patience and it really leaves me gawking, my jaws literally dropped. you know what i will do if im at home? i will run all the way to my room and throw myself on my bed and wail and cry my heart out. yes, that dramatic.

i leave all this to God.
i really need to calm myself down and turn to HIM for help.
i badly need his guidance.
im drowning in my own thoughts and emotions.
i lost my way in paths of my own life.

im lost.

sidetrack:-
RIP MICHAEL JACKSON. YOU WERE ONE TRUE POP KING!
YOUR MUSIC WILL STILL LIVE.

2009-06-25T04:33:00.000-07:00

god, its exactly three months since i last updated.

anw,
HAPPY THREE MONTHSARY TO MY BELOVED RIDHWAN! (:
love u so much honeyy! one helluva ride with u!
one thing for sure, u are the first person i think of when i open my eyes in the morning and u are the last person i think of before i shut my eyes at night. and u never fail to make me smile.
u bring joy and happiness into my life.
as cliche as it sounds, i cant live without u, i cant imagine how my life will be without u.
thanks for everything baby. (:
mwahsssss!

will update more soon (:

never happier

2009-03-25T00:51:00.001-07:00

I'M OFFICIALLY ATTACHED TO MD RIDHWAN RAMLAN TODAY MARCH THE 25TH, 0545 HRS.

happpppyyyyyy

2009-03-23T22:17:00.000-07:00

24th march, lunch time.

yesterday met wan, zim and rendy, hilda and farhan at west coast park around 8pm.
and we discussed about our holiday trip. yay!
aside from that end of this yr we might be going Bali also.
and im going Genting and KL with Wan this upcoming july.
yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

so next week we going tent pitching at ecp also.
the six of us.
gonna bbq and cycle and swim.
i so cant wait for that.

today going karaoke with them after work.
(:

2 more days to my bro, ameerul putra's birthday!
8 years old. so fast!

2009-03-22T07:04:00.000-07:00

22nd march 09, 10:22pm

just when i thought i wanna update on a regular basis, my internet connection at home crashed.
thanks a whole lot stupid broadband shit.
and now that its back, i decide to post an entry after what seems like forever.
and to add to the misery, i lost my beloved 5300 Nokia phone and i was glad i didnt top up my prepaid before my phone got lost. !@#$% ughhhhhh.
and i lost most of my friends' contacts err especially my guyfriends.
and i think my friends must have called my number a gazillion times.
sorry pple! so 83315034 is no longer available pple.
pls PM me at MSN to know my new no.
so swayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!

anyway enough of whinings.
i find TAGGED now damn useless. i thought i can find old friends from there.
but it seems like a hot source for guys to find gals and vice versa.
and some of them are damn disgusting and pervert.
well whatever. gonna delete it soon anyway.

facebook is the sex now. (:
but im still not that familiar with all the applications and all.
but i love it.

friendster is oh-so-dead.
besides the friend requests and new comments and messages, mine is basically dead.

so these past few days been resting alot at home.
and meeting my loved ones.
hilda, zim, wan, rendy, farhan.
especially wan. thanks for everything. you never make me fail to smile even if im at my lowest.
met up with my cousin narimah recently to do some catching ups.
and i miss her already. :(

okay.
will update more soon! (:
love y'all.

2009-03-15T20:49:00.001-07:00

16th march 2009, 0120hrs
i spent my saturday and sunday at home cause i was too lazy to go out.
lazy..well, whats new? LOL.
watched DVDs after DVDs. and i watched 13 going on 30 twice. i love that movie seiiii!

and i chatted with lotsa old friends. suddenly i got in touch with old friends.
chatted with Imam about our night lifes past few weeks. very nice guy.
didnt know Imam is that type. haha.
the last i saw him was on Fahmy's birthday last year.

and i might be clubbing again soon.
lia, give up laaa. hahaha.

okay gtg.
got things to do.
tc ya'll!

content

2009-03-13T23:43:00.000-07:00

14th march 2009, 2:53pm

i've deleted all my posts.
gonna start my life afresh.
and i'm gonna delete all my previous blogs.
not worth keeping.
everything is out of my life now.
everything.

been in touch with long lost friends.
got in touch with Syahiran, ex GTYN.
and we exchanged numbers and shared alot.
and when i was with my ex, he did like me before.
haha. had fun talking, very funny guy.

got in touch with an ex of mine during sec sch times,
Zahid Gwynne. had very refreshing chat sessions.
all thanks to facebook.

been spending time alot and alot with my two beloved gals.
azimah and hilda.

not forgetting beloved Md Ridhwan Ramlan.
a date of mine. nicest guy on earth. haha.
who changed my perspective of love totally.
and we are gonna date and date and date till the right time comes.
pray for us pple. (:

and i'm happy with my life.
the people in my life. (:
i love you guys.
and i love you Mr R.R (: